Scars (feat. John Rushton & English)

I got a lot of scars full of pain I I got a lot of scars full of pain I I got a lot of scars full of pain I I got a lot of scars, I got a lot of scars Yeah, the pain is never over I had the devil on my shoulder Trying to change my life the father saved me I wont hold you, its over You think you know FAD but you don't know him I done change my life around and fake ones I expose them Yeah, and you going to do the same for yourself it feel's good I closed my eyes like once a week and I thought I was good I know you don't believe in yourself but you should yeah And he didn't want to believe in me I did what I could yeah Yeah, I did what I could yeah Got to move your mind around and change out what you think Yeah, you can lead a horse to water but you can't make him drink I had scars full of pain I would cover them up with drinks I told my brother you going to find another fish inside the tank Now depression taking over dirty dishes in the sink Dawg, life an steady battle you just work out all the kinks Selling features, saving bread, trying to pay off all this ink on me Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars, I got a lot of scars Family unit broken, lately I've been losing focus Dad is in a tent under the bridge I got to assume he's dope sick I consume to cope with, no more race unruly moments Waiting on my wake-up call, still don't hear no roosters crowing God been playing chicken with me Gamble with my soul, put the higher me on this track like it will cancel out my lows Told FAD I'd give it all I had, channel me some growth And on the edge but I've been stepping back, standing her alone So tell my uncle that I'll call more Momma that I'll be at church Learning that I got to work harder than all my demons work To all my friends I know I'm distant I'll reach out more frequently Tell the devil not today, can't let him win easily Yeah, I need to lay a foundation Jesus was a carpenter so watch me build I need to pray for salvation Cant do this on my own I've been waiting for all my scars to heal, for real Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars, I got a lot of scars They say faith without works is dead, I'm working until my hands blead Screaming for a savior until I can't breathe Past decisions coming back to haunt, remorse is just an after thought Radiating love to come and hit me like an atom bomb On the eve of destruction, I can still see the beauty Because I can say that I knew you and you can say that you knew me Sometime I feel like the thief who was next to you on the cross Because I believe nobody else can prove me wrong Hard to cope inside a sober mind I tell myself I'm clocking out while the devils working overtime I don't want to be addicted to nothing I want to be addicted to Christ, like my addiction to substance Defy the odds and talk to god, in the defining moment Twelve steps out of rock bottom, with my bible open A seamstress who is stitching up a child who is broken It's the truth and the word he ahs lined my soul with Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars full of pain I Yeah, I got a lot of scars, I got a lot of scars