since i smiled

I knew you won't get this I tried to explain this I begged you to understand Just to see that you won't really listen You had good intentions I felt your obsession I begged you to understand Just to see that you don't really feel it Now you wonder why It took so long To find myself at peace Nowadays I'm feeling better Better than I used to be But it's been so long since I smiled Yeah, it's been so long since I smiled Now you wonder why It took so long To find myself at peace Nowadays I'm feeling better Better than I used to be But it's been so long since I smiled Yeah, it's been so long since I smiled I think I'll be good now I fixed what I could now I won't try to run again From the boy that I saw in the mirror Now I'm a letdown Now I'm the bad one For speaking out on things that I don't love Can't keep my mouth shut Can't keep my eyes down I don't feel bad for the things that I say now You don't believe that And I just feel that The way you dragged me down - I don't need that I do what I can It's not in my plans To prove a thing to you Now do you wonder why It took so long To find myself at peace Nowadays I'm feeling better Better than I used to be But it's been so long since I smiled Yeah, it's been so long since I smiled Now you wonder why It took so long To find myself at peace Nowadays I'm feeling better Better than I used to be But it's been so long since I smiled Yeah, it's been so long since I smiled