synthetic femininity

Maybe if i took the time I could find my peace of mind My reflection is a snake Aftermath of a mistake Fought against the world so long You would think that i'd be strong But nothing can ease my pain Every time it's all the same Delicate in denial My thoughts are in a spiral Inside your arms i'll hide Feminine in disguise Hold my breath into the fire You're the one that i desire Keep me safe from all the pain Help me if i go insane All my faith inside a pill God i wish that i were real Tell myself they're out of touch But their eyes tell me disgust Am i really a female Oh god theyre so evil I'm climbing a ladder But why does it matter?