circular breathing

You dropped your laugh When you left, I picked it up It fit me just right You always liked That we wore the same size Now it pours out of me When something's genuinely funny It's the only time the thought of you Doesn't leave a lump in my throat It makes me wanna call you But I don't Still I see you everywhere, Swear you walk up and Down these avenues Just the other day There you were Pacing by the river On the east side I was so sure you Crossed the street Just to avoid me Until I felt a pang And then I noticed The rain Anyway I'm sure you're a man now Somewhere out there But when I picture you you're still the same kid In the same Bowie t shirt Tripping acid out of our heads As we walked the garden path You took a phone call I was so impressed I was delusional Next to you I should've felt small But I didn't at all I loved you cuz you had shit to say Not just shit to talk about I can still see it now Lying with you, I died when I kissed you You whispered poems at my grave, Swear you commanded armies in your name They never fought a battle in vain Wish I could say the same for myself Think that I was bad for your health, If only I Had let you go Before it was too late, That day in the living room, Blinking through the winter's glow Circular breathing The thought felt like treason How could I Burn Down My home? My king and country, The best I'd ever known Nothing right is ever easy, believe me If only I had let you go Before it was too late