Better Off

I tell myself I'm better off I tell myself I'm better off here I'm waiting here for you to call But you never so I'm better off I tell myself I'm better off I tell myself I'm better off here I'm waiting here for you to call But you never so I'm better off I tell myself I'm better off Waiting here for you to call Stuck inside my head that's why I drown myself in alcohol See I used to want it all Now I want someone to hold Fucked up every girl I had and wrote over 100 songs Now I see that I had it all wrong I wish that I could tell her that but she built up a wall Used to try to be that guy that I know everybody wants Now when I go out I try to blend in like I'm camouflage I tell myself I'm better off I tell myself I'm better off here I tell myself I'm better off I tell myself I'm better off I'm waiting here for you to call But you don't ever do it oh Oh oh Uh Pitch perfect my minds turning I'm uncertain I wish that I could call her up and tell her what's hurting Wish I had another chance to say I hope your well I wanna open up my heart for you like show and tell No this ain't what I thought I wanted no way I didn't empty out my heart to fill it up with pain I didn't try to use you but it ended up a waste I hope you understand that I know this is on me On me I know everything is on me Pressure on my neck hydraulic press is what is on me I want show you all the moving pieces like a saw blade If you cut me in half I'll show you what is deep beyond me I've been thinking about a lot I got the tables turning I wish I could try again, like I'm Timmy turner I got everything I wanted, I know that I earned it But I shouldn't make you feel like that don't deserve it I tell myself I'm better off I tell myself I'm better off here I'm waiting here for you to call But you never so I'm better off I tell myself I'm better off I tell myself I'm better off here I'm waiting here for you to call But you never so I'm better off When you told me that your better off Hoped I would forget it all Now I've been so focused on you like I'm taking adderall I don't really know why I'm talking, I already said too much No I didn't do enough Wish I never gave it up I did everything I could but still I couldn't be enough All the things you never had I really tried to bring you some Tried to take away you problems but instead I brought more on Now I ended up being exactly what you never want