Heat

I wish it were easier to be myself I wish I could talk about what’s on my mind Without having to apologise all the time I’ve got things to say you know But I’m just too scared When you ask I just say no Just in case you don’t care Feel like the world is coming to an end Read through my texts 10-20 times before I hit send I drink too much on the weekend Am I a good friend I tend to overthink And I’m always scared Then I tend to overdrink Makes me not care Then the heat seeps in Everything I do feels like a sin I try to compose myself But how can I be myself When my thoughts are racing fatally And I’m left feeling so empty I’ve got things to say you know But I’m just too scared When you ask I just say no Just in case you don’t care