Weird Place

Not something to hold on to I thought when I lost you I was in a weird place When I was just a sketch You filled in shadows gave me depth It's not erased I wanted a mirror I couldn't see myself Angle it right and then we were the same I used to think that I'd end up like you Cause I had it in me, the genes went unexpressed Just another thing that we worked through Act like it's resolved even if it hasn't left Or I was just another person that hurt you The way I opened up and you were unimpressed It's just another thing that we work through I thought I did but it just hadn't come up again When you aimed for the leg Missed so far you shot the head Either way you meant to hit I thought I'd made so much progress But there's always more to process Can't write through it I wanted a mirror was scared of what I saw I can look at myself but can't unsee you yet Carry it with me it wrecks the whole mood Ruin my friends nights when I don't forget I'd have given everything to be with you Cause I had it in me to hold you up too high And it's just another thing that I do Projected on everyone before I knew why Cause I'd have given everything to be like you Whatever I am at least I can write that off It's just another thing that we work through Another path we weren't meant to cross I hid you up my sleeve My sob story my sympathy Left out when I was wrong Never the bastion of decency I tried to chase that feeling Forgetting it's not something I want Break it off until everyone is just something to learn from Then I found your texts and laughed because We were really just kids (At least I was) That doesn't mean it didn't hurt It will never disappear Obsessive, possessive, cavalier I'm sure we both put in the work I was in a weird place when I lost you I was in a weird place when I lost you I was in a weird place You were in a weird place I was in a weird place You were in a weird place But that's no excuse