Breaking Point.

My life been slipping through my hands just like the sands of time Pursuing happiness but something I can never find Stressed out from all the problems that I caused for selfish reasons I've reached the breaking point I'm desperate for a fucking meaning The demons creepin' on the walls like shadows grasping at my soul The worlds whole weight is on my shoulders I might fucking fold There's so much pressure in my chest I'm always feeling sick A constant aching in my heart I need to get a grip I hope I'll be ok but that I'll never know And if I eat a bullet The world will keep its flow What if I spit it right back out into the barrel of the 9 I'll place a smile on my face and know it's only a disguise I'm just stuck in my head in my head in my head I think I'm better off dead off dead off dead Won't you help me lay to rest lay to rest lay to rest Save my life I detest I detest I detest I wallow in my sadness but I still lie and say I'm fine Don't think I'll make it through this cause i got so much on my mind In so much pain cause I got so much on my mind Everyday I fucking struggle while I'm searching for a light With teardrops falling on the ashes of everything I've ever loved There ain't nobody here to save me as I start to come undone I'll take the longest drag of my final cigarette Then reminisce on all things I've done that fill me with regret While I'm ignoring all the urges and intrusive thoughts If I killed myself right now who'd be affected by this loss Now I ain't scared of death my fear is facing emptiness Will I be dragged to hell or will my soul some how ascend And I apologize for this when all is said and done What reason do you have to miss me I can't think of one I'm just stuck in my head in my head in my head I know I'm better off dead off dead off dead Won't you help me lay to rest lay to rest lay to rest Save my life I detest I detest I detest I wallow in my sadness but I still lie and say I'm fine Don't think I'll make it through this cause i got so much on my mind