Self-Destructive Disposition

Get the f*ck off my back I feel that I'm gonna snap Everything fading to black I'm a disgrace get the f*ck out of my face Why do you care you're burden I bare Evading every question that you've thrown in my direction You're the source of my dejection Self destructive disposition I beg you think this through twice Do wanna be a part of my life I don't really think I want your advice You don't wanna see the look in my eyes I'm sitting crying with the barrel pressed against my neck I can't push myself to squeeze the fucking trigger yet When was the last time I ate I haven't slept for three days I wanna squander this pain You are the hate I sustain I hate the fact that I'm the strongest person in your life Tell me what you plan to do when I fucking die Aye f*ck this place I wanna fucking waste away Every minute every day No one fucks with what I say Aye f*ck this place I wanna fucking waste away Every minute every day No one fucks with what I say F*ck this place I wanna fucking waste away Every minute every day No one fucks with what I say Aye f*ck this place I wanna fucking waste away Every minute every day No one fucks with what I say It's no wonder why I'm a fucking mess Everything I learned was toxic trait I'm certain I'm not the only person experiencing these fucked up mannerisms my parents Left me Here I am thinking I have healthy coping mechanisms for the fucked up shit they would Say to me I was fucking wrong I'm slipping deeper in the emptiness I've lost my drive I couldn't give you any answers I feel dead inside You're constant bitching leaves a deeper pit inside my gut I've got the this blade against my skin I guess I've had enough F*ck this place I wanna fucking waste away Every minute every day No one fucks with what I say Aye f*ck this place I wanna fucking waste away Every minute every day No one fucks with what I say F*ck this place