My Love

My love Where are you? Do you feel the space stored tightly between us? Do you feel the wind rise up and shake your bones? I am cold Filled with thirst You should not be the concrete to my water You are clay and you absorb me till only you is left I fear I am being pulled away from you, my love I cannot give you everything I want to say I love you And mean it as 'I'll never leave you' But I do not know that to be true and it aches Like there are knives grazing my lungs Can you hear me, my love? I cannot breathe I cannot breathe in you I feel your weight on my chest In my throat solid like cement You are too heavy for me to take I do not want you to leave, my love But I am here writing writing writing Our eulogy into existence and the weight cripples my fingers Makes war with the truth rattling in my skull I see the end Final like fields of our concrete tombstone Fear makes putty from my bones I am so tired, my love I cannot let you go I am sorry my love, but I have to go