Dear Diary, Last Entry

I'm getting tired of fighting the worst days I'm uninspired and holding a straight face A wasted decade maintaining a safe space Sitting around just waiting for first place I'm sure you've noticed I'm not in the best mood It's been a while and I'm sure that you're feeling it too And it's new and I know that you know that, but it's true that I'm slow in the moment It's just begun and I'm stuck in the onset I want to run but I can't even walk yet Help me understand I only want to understand just tell me, you I wanna know, I wanna know The way you think this year will go It's never been a fashion show, you know that's only when your eyes are closed You're singing la la la with your head in the clouds While we're waiting around for you to come back down So you, I wanna know, I wanna know the way you think this year will go I understand that you have to start somewhere I'm in between comprehending and not fair Every day gone by, every grey blue sky, is a sign to remind me I'm not there Baby how long can you stand me letting down my friends and family Help me understand, I only want to understand just tell me, you I wanna know, I wanna know The way you think this year will go It's never been a fashion show, you know that's only when your eyes are closed You're singing la la la with your head in the clouds While we're waiting around for you to come back down So you, I wanna know, I wanna know the way you think this year will go I'm in your headphones wondering why I'm na na na na na not ready to go A stumbling mess of emotion I'm na na na na na na not ready to show I thought I saved us last time but purpose over happiness is fine Help me understand I only ever wanna know I wanna know, I wanna know The way you think this year will go It's never been a fashion show, you know that's only when your eyes are closed You're singing la la la with your head in the clouds While we're waiting around for you to come back down So you, I wanna know, I wanna know the way you think this year will go The way you think this year will go You're singing la la la with your head in the clouds While we're waiting around for you to come back down So you, I wanna know, I wanna know the way you think this year will go