Empire

I feel like I've told you this story a thousand times, and it never gets easier As if my memories and family would agree, you'd see I can't recall having either You'll find me walking the line between acceptance and fantasy Gravity pushes me daily, you knew You can't expect a massive lack of effort to make your dreams come true I've seen you waiting, don't mistake my hesitating Understand I never wanted this so damn bad in the first place It's so frustrating when you're constantly updating If you'd just played along you imagine succeeding the worst way In the worst way I thought I had it made in my sophomore year, it was clear we were moving But in hindsight, the fear I remember of wasting a year was only learning and losing If deja vu were true, then when I'm thinking of you in the ratings The crowds getting doubtful If deja vu were true, then you'd be bleeding without me As if I'm watching a bad TV rerun I've planned all the action, I've seen all the outcomes If this adventure of ours is a book, it's a bad one I would've shut the lid years ago So if you're counting me out on a count of the timeline Then you must be counting wrong I was waiting and hating the patience But living and learning means knowing to follow your heart And in the doubting of thoughts you referred to as "all mine" You forgot to tag along I never wanted the selfish to fear me, but "hero" and "zero" is only a letter apart Look around now the stage is dismantled Explain how to live in a life that's been cancelled As if it always meant nothing