Mess

I'm such a fucking mess Going out of my own head Tell myself I do my best But then I look to my friends And realise I hope the know How much they mean to me And the make me want to become The best that I can be Then I think of why we're here and why everything exists Feelings of constant fear yet no matter I persist To f*ck myself at every turn Not sure when I'll ever learn Get fucked up when I know I shouldn't My time is nothing if not misspent But I know I wouldn't change a thing if I somehow got the chance And if I have learned anything it's to not repeat my past But most of all it's that I'm still a mess