Medicate

I've been lying awake at night I've been hoping that I'm alright I've been winding myself too tight Wondering if I will sleep tonight Never thought things would get like this Always hoping that they'd work out Still ingesting the wrong amount Now I seem to be filled with doubt I cannot stop this ride I'm growing cold inside I shouldn't let it slide Will sickness be mine This should not be my weight to bear Go on acting like I don't care Stop this high --- I wouldn't dare I have earned and deserve my share Things like this happen every day While I'm in there I feel ok But you say I should get away