Winding Road

I'm lost with who I am Don't know who to trust or where to stand It's been some long cold months And I just need to warm up right before I jump Went in oh so happy and came out all broke Can't seem to find the instructions to fix my soul Took all of my pain and buried it underneath But it hurt so fucking much because I kept it discrete Every day just felt like I was in the backseat I just closed my eyes and hoped it was all a dream Til I opened them and saw who I had to be It's taken me this long but I can finally see It's been a long winding road Don't know how to get past it on my own It feels oh so cold It's been a long winding road I don't see the harm putting your hope in someone's heart But don't think I don't exactly who you are Because you left me with all of these scars When you took off and put up those bars Through the cracks I don't know who to believe Can't put my trust in God because he bailed on me Then the devil put his hand out to reach And each step I take feels like I’m further from peace It's been a long winding road Don't know how to get past it on my own And it feels oh so cold It's been a long winding road