Dissociating

Pushing all my buttons Now I'm running out of options Got me thinking crazy I'm inhaling all these toxins If life is so amazing Then please tell me why I'm fading away Got me feeling like another star Dying in space They always told me Nothing good would come from running away Taking your advice Got me fuckin running in place If you take it like a man Then you won't feel the pain Now I'm disconnecting Feels like I'm just trying in vain If no one told you That this was the last time That you'd hear from me Tell me what you'd really feel Nah I'm playing I be joking for the f*ck it The only time I feel alive Is when I'm coming close to death I'm flying just to free my mind Now I think I'm closing in Got my feelings in a box Now It's time to open it Little did I think That I would ever be as lost this Open up my eyes Just to see the same shit Im just thankful That I get to see another night Light another joint But this time I ain't really feeling right Never sober keep on going til it's over Mentality unstable Every night I'm getting colder Pushing all my buttons Now I'm running out of options Got me thinking crazy I'm inhaling all these toxins If life is so amazing Then please tell me why I'm fading away Got me feeling like another star Dying in space They always told me Nothing good would come from running away Taking your advice Got me fuckin running in place If you take it like a man Then you won't feel the pain Now I'm disconnecting Feels like I'm just trying in vain I know that I've been acting distant lately Try to keep in mind that I'm dissociating All the love you give me Maybe this is really worth it I been so persistent I don't want no one to notice Everything you hear Is just a product of emotion When I sing about it Nothing ever goes unspoken Now I gotta disappear If you ever wondered why Ima make it really clear I don't really feel like I'm here I don't really feel the same things you feel no I don't fear the things that you fear I don't really feel the same things that you feel no