SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder)

Thoughts turning my stomach All muscles are tense Awkward attempts To step in public again I huff and puff as my lungs seize Shaking like leaves Sweat beads turn to patches, So a jacket I need It isn't cold, no one knows Cause I keep it on the low Keep it realer than most Yet what you see is a persona My suppressed emotions Get the better of me I never let shit go I've got resentment problems Pressin' on me Depressions got a percentage of it Lets be honest More like it's a symptom of it Call it Cognitive Vomit The last thing you wanna think of Is what probably caused the shit So solving it is beyond ya Then you're falling into Thinking there's no way out Nothing dulls the pain It used to be irregular You struggle every day now Its either take the reigns Or accept your fate Every day is another chance Not a challenge Make a change! See, I'm not like them At times I'd like to be So I pretend to smile As if anxiety isn't binding me I'm tied up in shame Stay inside and still Feel the rain Either I'm insane Or else the rest are just lying fakes I keep a rake of memories I wish I could erase They spontaneously stick their foot in my face Thats why I love to create The base is my elevation The melody is my therapy I scribble meditations While my generation is buzzing Loving life, Embracing it I just spend my days smoking haze Until the pages fill I say Im chillin' when the boys Text to drink with them They think I'm sly - Think my paranoia is playing the victim The health system's a mess They fed me antidepressants Now I can't get out of bed My head is melted like Edvard The screaming man - screaming at These demons from my past Give me peace at last. Have to face facts Cant hack these panic attacks I've had it man - gonna snap And tell this SAD to make tracks I made a tactical plan Today I plan on attacking Standing up to SAD That's what this track is They say that Life is for living I've been living to die Well now I'm Dying to live Think I'll give this a try Gonna spit what I write in the mic And give ya my mind So if ya think we're alike Then I'd like to give this advice Leap into that deep end! Don't assess yourself Accept and express yourself Protect your mental health Its on you - watch it! Acknowledge what you're going through You control your thoughts, Don't let them own you!