Shades of Grey

Living now; It all exists. Imagery and dissonance Watching, waiting everyday. I see it all. It's gone away It's gone away Never really knowing why. It crossed my mind a thousand times Should I speak or should I sigh. I live to know I lose my Mind. Event now; Even then; It all just constitutes my sin Wishful thinking gone astray. I watch you fall. You make me pray You make me pray Nothing matters nothing goes. Restrain myself from all of this pain I watch it fade. I own it all but nothing stays. It never really stays Just fades away Just fades away Movements past. Matters grey. I held it high above but nothing stays I go on living in the past. The best for worst I leave it now I bury my thoughts they still exist. Nevermind it all conflicts. Nevermind I close my eyes. I shut them tight. You're still in me I can not fight You lay me down. I can not win. You make me stay. Now I begin