Most of My Scars (feat. Otu)

Lost in life don't know who to be Daily grind was not for me Joined up, headed overseas Time to fight our enemies Sent me very far away Life and death every single day Banded together in every way Who's ticket will get punched today Roadside bombs and IEDs Bullets flying right at me Hardly a scratch anyone can see The major wounds are inside of me Cuz Most my scars are on the inside All of the pain I always denied Buried under my foolish pride So many times I almost died That was the day I lost my friend I stayed with him until the end A folded flag is all they will send Shouldn't have bothered to pretend. Now I'm back in my home town Feeling like I'm gonna drown Came back with the disease PTSD is a part of me Most of my scars are on the inside Too much pain I can never survive My mind is stuck in overdrive Won't be long till I end this ride I saw the things you should never see The memories always haunting me Nightmares and flashbacks consume my dreams Cannot silence the incessant screams They gave me drugs, they gave me meds Never fixed what's in my head Too many things I can never forget So many things I'll always regret Cuz most of my scars are on the inside Drugs and booze take me over the bend I lost m-my family and friends I just want the pain to end About to say last goodbyes Can only imagine all the cries Finally Free from all the lies Can finally drop this happy disguise I probably could have beat it If I got the help that I needed Well I guess we'll never know I have nothing left it's time to go Cuz most of my scars were on the inside Were on the inside Were on the inside Cuz most of my scars Yeah most of my scars Were on the inside On the inside