The Abyss

I spent a couple months outta action costed my sanity Lost pop pop then my passion for rapping life couldn't grasp it Balled my problems up like they was a napkin played tennis racket Couldn't fathom the water deepened no paddle I'm fighting a different battle there's evil with the shadow Only me myself and I know that I never had em, matter fact It wasn't straw that broke the camels back or killed the matador Psychic ward, crazy motherfucker that you can't ignore Ego pushed my back against the wall, may of tripped but never fall Autumn Audemars I don't need diamonds dancing to know I'm a star Not from Earth and out of touch reality seems so bizarre Like that time I took 3 bars cause my ex chick had went nexus cause the sex was getting Raw Monday nights Jim Ross sick vlogs shout out Luke Vaughn Getting my bread like crouton, stacking chips put the crew on Mustard I need that poupon oodles noodles and Udon Yeah and around Christmas time call me Rudolph December 26 what a gift just had my 20th Month prior to this I lost my senses Covid did me in Everything at once beat me to shit I was struggling Never thought I'd see myself this low I felt the ugliest High up late at night many times thought about me dying Still not suicidal but the song resides and I aint lying Fully been compliant predictions but aint no Myan 2012 all over it's going postal and Bezos buying Prime to your doorstep over night Douglas discount that's a Fisher Price Wave your Pickett signs this ain't quitting time realest multiply But sadly this generation is full of dandelions And I got my heart set on the finish line Me myself and I talk about a world colliding its catastrophic inner demons resorting to violence Big bodies, Godzilla, Skull Island 2 monsters, 1 human, true psychic Thought I was really the kid Ego the size of a blimp Sophomore Junior year studio sessions like it was a gym 9 days perfection sonnet then hit after hit after hit Was calm before the aftermath had left an abyss