Holes To Fill (feat. DJ Matt Perry & DJ Pain 1)

Wishing I won't be ill That isn't how I chose to feel Grip sanity hold it still Nowadays its hard to know what's real No I won't choke on pills Even when the worlds cold as steel Got a whole lot of holes to fill That only a soul can heal Wishing I won't be ill That isn't how I chose to feel Grip sanity hold it still Nowadays its hard to know what's real No I won't choke on pills Even when the worlds cold as steel Got a whole lot of holes to fill That only a soul can heal They said I've been sick for a while now Running from myself, I want another couple miles down In my old age seems tough to get a smile out Or at least one that I don't have to lie about Spent younger years clashing with a quiet town Like oil and water with a violent sound High out my mind under violet clouds In the center of the circle friends die around That shit happens all the time Everyone forgets shortly after asking why And Frankly it isn't worth looking up Most of us will find that the answer isn't good enough So it's nothing but trouble we're cooking up Looking for a source of some poison to hook it up This is what we've become, look at us I stay away from mirrors cuz that image leaves me shook as f*ck Yeah, A million ways to die and guess that they all missed me Yeah, I am not broken you cannot fix me No, This for everyone around here who's still with me Yeah, Plus ones who aren't anymore sometimes I wish that they picked me And I ain't picky Living with the choices I made can be tricky Tried improving while the world stayed shitty With drugs in the back of my mind saying sniff me Guess the kids should have known better Too many won't grow into adults, Oh well word It's your move you can go seek shelter But first here's your tab can you please close out sir Wishing I won't be ill That isn't how I chose to feel Grip sanity hold it still Nowadays its hard to know what's real No I won't choke on pills Even when the worlds cold as steel Got a whole lot of holes to fill That only a soul can heal Wishing I won't be ill That isn't how I chose to feel Grip sanity hold it still Nowadays its hard to know what's real No I won't choke on pills Even when the worlds cold as steel Got a whole lot of holes to fill That only a soul can heal It's no wonder, look at the surroundings Got problems piled up higher than some mountains May as well have been something in the fountain The fact that I can even function is astounding Not much to live for, Growing up piss poor Using what I got in hopes I can get more Always seems that the work never adds up I don't blame anyone or believe in bad luck Maybe should have stayed in school Instead of breaking rules trying to raise the roof Drinking straight from the 80 proof Hoping it'd make me cool, I played the fool And there's the truth, it's bittersweet If I knew myself I'd get rid of me Smack him up for acting dumb Sit him down and trash his drugs Do it again, till he's had enough He thinks it's funny, they're cracking up Napped on the street too spun out on dope To realize he's just the butt of the joke Isn't it fun? Spent it all till he's broke Chill at gas stations bumming for smokes Then Back to the crib for some crumbs of some coke To sniff off the carpet, f*ck is that gross Wishing I won't be ill That isn't how I chose to feel Grip sanity hold it still Nowadays its hard to know what's real No I won't choke on pills Even when the worlds cold as steel Got a whole lot of holes to fill That only a soul can heal Wishing I won't be ill That isn't how I chose to feel Grip sanity hold it still Nowadays its hard to know what's real No I won't choke on pills Even when the worlds cold as steel Got a whole lot of holes to fill That only a soul can heal