Torn Down

It started off first day it was so lovely (so crazy) 3 days later she said she actually fucking loved me A week later I can tell she did'int love me Went out cheated twice came back and said f*ck me I was like wow how could you do this I realized I was so stupid and just clueless I did'int think this girl would tear me up and make me ruthless My mind was so stuffed up brought me back so much confusion I know me being me I thought you would int mind it Would thought you was upfront and never would hide it The pain that I suffered I really had to fight it Never thought about picking up a cigar and just light it I knew drugs would'int make me even a better person So I fought through the pain and it made me a better version I was certain I was acting like it was good when it was hurting Asking god if I even have a fucking purpose (do I) I just wanna say your a bitch for what you did When I said I cared for you I actually mean it When you said you cared for me you did'int even mean it After you cheated all the thoughts about me and you I could'int see it Now you wanna come back say sorry I can't believe it When you told me we were done it was hurting my head That night I barely could'int even go to sleep in my bed My heart stop man I knew I was literally dead We should have broke up but you decide to go cheat on me instead And it started off first day it was so lovely 3 days later she said that she actually fucking loved me A week later I can tell she did'int even love me Went out cheated twice came back and said f*ck me I was like wow how could you do this I realized I was so stupid and just clueless I did'int think this girl would tear me up and make me ruthless My mind was so stuffed up man it brought me confusion