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This is the one time that I was close to be gone Yeah, This is how it begun The first time that pills got me stun The story of how my ex just saw me as a pawn Playing chess with my mind just for fun I've never felt something this strong before Not finding the exit not know where to look for In this shit called love I got no mentor No one ever told me that I was falling for a whore This ain't a rap about me showing my skill I'm here to tell ya'll how it really feels To get your heart broken and never heal To feel useless like a car with no steering wheel I thought our love could never be defeated I was so stupid I was so conceited Cause when you went with that guy and you cheated That was the first time that I really felt depleted So when I found out I went to my room I start to scream and shout Obsessive compulsive disorder cause my mind is full of doubt I always gave my best to you so what the f*ck was that all about Turns out that Like a hotel of our relantionship I had to check out Maybe it was just for the trhill Maybe I should eat a pill My body asking to overfill I try to resist but maybe I can't Asking myself if love could really kill I fucking swear that the pills started to speak to me Overdose solution seemed to be Voices in my mind messing with my reality So I look at the pills and give in Embracing the devil within My whole world starts to spin I start to forget all the pain I live in So I take 1 So I take 2 I took 1 2 3 4 I dropped to the floor But still hungry for more An evil creature starts to form, he enters my room and he closes the door He starts to speak to me and he asks This is what you fell for? A bitch is what you cared for? Now tell what the f*ck do you stand for? He says follow me As he continues to speak to me Reminding me all of the things that I want to forget Reminding every decision in my life that I fucking regret I started to sweat Everything in the room is spinning like a fucking roulette He reminds me of how my ex ate all my feelings like a fucking buffet I start to realize that he looks like some kind of silhouette He pulls out a cigarrete And he says Look at me closely What do you see Once you figure this shit out I'm setting you free It looked like a shadow begging to be free I start Asking myself who the f*ck is this creature gonna be Hey Wait He has my hands My feet How could it be Turns out I'm killing myself Cause he's just a reflection of me