Blue

Ain't been too long but I guess we back at it again Cutting on the mic and get to rapping my sins My wins my schemes my dreams been lookin lost in the wind Another gust and man, the devil calling again Don't wanna answer the phone Just let him go to the tone God will fight the rocky roads ain't no Sylvester Stallone God just throw me the rope Why'd you make me so emotional that simple little comments like a bomb to my soul People got me questioning what I'm really worth Got me questioning why grandma ain't still walking on this earth I ain't mad at God for sayin that it's her turn to fly I'm just mad because I didn't get the time to say goodbye Yeah I couldn't cause of covid Devil that's a low hit Tryna stay devoted But still I'm overdosing On pain and my shame My hearts been tainted with flames That I was told to put out but now they rising with rage Maybe it's too late Maybe I'm too far to save Maybe I'm overthinking everything I write on this page Don't matter My eyes been battered and beaten Broken and shattered from seeing Christians leave it all for fruit from the Garden of Eden I got something weighing on my mental I've been feeling heavy in my heart Tryna pick me up but I can't stand it Doing everything just not to fall apart, yeah I've been looking blue blue blue blue blue blue Heavy on my heart I've been looking blue blue blue blue blue blue Heavy on my heart, heart Got me out here kicking cans Things ain't always spick and spam But who you gon turn to when your life decides to hit the fan Switch lanes, mini van Driving through this silly plan Was getting deep but now I'm thinkin how to keep a busy hand With stresses in life Cope as I press on the mic Focusing less on my Christ Who can I impress with these likes? Yeah I'm just tryna find peace Not ones that squeeze and release The one that makes all of my problems fade when I hit my knees Lately it hasn't been working although I walk in my purpose Been drifting from my Gods desires back to scratching the surface Go to service thrice a week But my past like tobacco Addictions calling out to me Makin my faith feel shallow But At one point I was deep oh Lord what happened to me I know the 99 you'll leave feel like the one lost sheep But I know you'll never let me down so I'll keep praying I got nothing left to do hearts been lookin blue so I'm sayin I got something weighing on my mental I've been feeling heavy in my heart Tryna pick me up but I can't stand it Doing everything just not to fall apart, yeah I've been looking blue blue blue blue blue blue Heavy on my heart I've been looking blue blue blue blue blue blue Heavy on my heart, heart