Misery

(It would be easier if everyone forgot who I was I'm aware of the paranoia but I can't find the cause Less time spent worrying if I was on my own I'll keep having these thoughts until I'm rotten to my bones) I paint my eyes black You can't see what's inside of me I keep crying blood It's caused by my misery I'm shaking with fear I have no need to feel this way I wish I could change But I have these feelings everyday I look in the mirror And I don't see what I wanna see I'll fade into black as my hopes slip away from me There's nothing for me I can see it clearly now I wish I could erase all these thoughts But I don't know how I'm dead on the floor I've drowned in my own misery It's a parasite It fills my head with anxiety I did this myself I inflict my own injuries My mind is plagued with these paralysing memories I lay down in the rain And let my body decompose I keep myself locked away In a place where no one knows My makeup's running down And I'm bleeding from my nose I'm miserable but I can't help This is the life I chose (It would be easier if everyone forgot who I was I'm aware of the paranoia but I can't find the cause Less time spent worrying if I was on my own I'll keep having these thoughts until I'm rotten to my bones) I'm dead on the floor I've drowned in my own misery It's a parasite It fills my head with anxiety I did this myself I inflict my own injuries My mind is plagued with these paralysing memories I lay down in the rain And let my body decompose I keep myself locked away In a place where no one knows My makeup's running down And I'm bleeding from my nose I'm miserable but I can't help This is the life I chose