its always been this way

I don't want your shit that you shoved in my face Leave me alone Don't say my name And let me move at my own pace So id say I think, I'm doing fine Cause it's always been this way They shove me down and kick me out The more I say what I'm about Cause They argue this and they argue for that Got my name in their mouth yet I never said theirs back I start ignoring all their text And avoiding all that's next Can't believe she's trynna talk After all those times she stalked like I don't gotta a lot now I just wanna talk now Never learned to swim So I got a reasons for my drowning And my body stops on moving Values aren't improving And all tho I've never tried it I think I wanna start using Gonna drain my arms until their dry So I don't gotta hear one more lie Ill drink my guilt and swallow my pride Am I really gonna be the reason that I die I went back on my word like far too much Fell in love from her touch So I used her words as a crutch I get these thoughts all in my mind Sometimes I wish that I had died Just tell my parents that I tried Or id say I think, I'm doing fine Cause it's always been this way They shove me down and kick me out The more I say what I'm about Cause They argue this and they argue for that Got my name in their mouth Yet I never said theirs back I start ignoring all their text And avoiding all that's next Can't believe she's trynna talk After all those times she stalked like