Nicotine

It's been so long since I been without you Been so long since I been without you The thought of you gone My mind runs with tension We're joined at the hip My day to day medicine Holy shit Holy f*ck I can't believe your leaving To be honest Not sure why I don't have a reason It's a long time coming And I'm changing like the seasons I might wanna die But I do enjoy breathing Nicotine Nicotine You been there for me You been there for me since I was fourteen You was there for me when I lost Anthony My dad My grandma My uncle Billy I gotta give it up It's running me down But this shit be really tough F*ck I'm smoking right now I could really use some help Somebody please reach out Before it's too late And I'm laying in a grave This shit be too much This shit be too much I could really use some help Somebody please reach out Please reach out I can't do it alone I can't do it alone I can't do it alone Please somebody reach out Put your fucking hand out I can't do it all alone I can't do it all alone You been there with me before I had anyone It was too much to bear But at least I had you there Please somebody reach out Put your fucking hand out I can't do it all alone I can't do this all alone You been there with me before I had anyone It was too much to bear But at least I had you there I think I'm ready now To finally put you down I thank you for your help But get the f*ck out You turned my lungs black With the puff of every pack And when I put you down No I'm never looking back A shortness of breath A tightness in my chest I just wish I knew how long I had left People always ask if I have some regrets I wish I never grabbed that first cigarette Ever since then You been by my side I see you every morning And you're there every night Chain smoking when I'm out and about in the town You're ingrained in my mind I can't ever get you out Please please Just leave me alone I wanna live my life and I wanna move on This shits really hard When you're holding on If I keep on trying One day you'll be gone This feeling that I crave Is too much to take I can't take it anymore Please just fade away Oh my god Oh my god It's been too long Since I knew what freedom was Please let go It's better for us both One day I'll get back To what I used to know I wanna quit I wanna quit Big tobacco is a bitch And I'm boutta jump ship