Doubt

When I dampen the fire that burns deep in me, and dilute the way I subject myself All the fragments of thought get reflected in, the facets of excitement Ive held down Time is the chain that captivates me, and in time you learn to express yourself I've lost my face in objectivity, and forgotten how to trust my heart When I can't start due to complacency, apathy seems like a safe place to be This is a spinning where we contemplate, how our Love and fear surrounds us now What will come after this, I just can't wait, For the present to move to this future thought I've grown patient in places I could not contain, and restless in dreams I can satiate Waiting to embrace all of my mistakes, as surprises from my unconscious thought Defying the patterns that have defined me Reaching out for some sort of novelty Will I give up on love Or complicate my trust Just engage our fears Because We built them up I get sick with precision I try to display Get rigid in how it presents itself I am where I want yet I feel displaced From the courage to let it all fall off Compacted by the traumas of release Lighting up for variety