24 Laps

I hit 24 laps around the sun today Burnt out, feeling like an ashtray When they ask me, I say I'm okay Truth be told, I'm afraid Don't know if I can go another day Don't know why I'm feeling this way I just wanna feel okay I just wanna feel okay I got some good friends I had some good times I don't really know why, I'm always talking sad shit with I rhyme It ain't like this all the time Sometimes the hill just feel too big to climb Guess it gets easier with time Or maybe I just get better at lying I know I said I'm fine Well I was fucking lying It ain't really that I wanna die I just ain't really wanna be alive (Nah man its not like I wanna die) (It's just a lot sometimes, ya know, like) (There's just no like pauses, or breaks and it just feel constant) (And its just) (It's a lot sometimes, ya know) I hit 24 laps around the sun today Burnt out, feeling like an ashtray When they ask me, I say I'm okay Truth be told, I'm afraid Don't know if I can go another day Don't know why I'm feeling this way I just wanna feel okay I just wanna feel okay Ain't I supposed to have this shit figured out I'm almost at a quarter century now Didn't know it would take this long Didn't know what I'd lost until it was gone Sunglasses on to hide my face Triple XL to hide my waist Walking round like a disgrace This whole life leaves a bad taste I guess its been another year now Another year full of dread and doubt Guess its only up from here on out Guess its only up from here on out I hit 24 laps around the sun today Burnt out, feeling like an ashtray When they ask me, I say I'm okay Truth be told, I'm afraid Don't know if I can go another day Don't know why I'm feeling this way I just wanna feel okay I just wanna feel okay