Phantom

There's a lot of things that I don't want to talk about now but I think I've been waiting too long I think I've been pacing too long Pacing though the days As if nothing had brought the bridge down But I think you should probably know I think that the system is kinda broken I'll be honest Which is pretty hard to do If I'm ever close to you I'll be open if you want it Can I say what's on my mind Without shutting down this time Cause I'm not the one that Turned me into a ghost I thought I could float Now I'm just stuck in recollections And I don't exist when you're close You've stolen my bones I'm in your vision as a phantom Be devoid of all life If that's what you like But it was never my decision Just a bad dream haunting your home Too paranoid-prone Why does it matter if I'm let down There's a lot of things that you won't let me talk about now but I think I've been shaking too long I think I've been hating too long Letting my eyes glaze As if feelings belonged further out But I think that the aching's not gone I think that you're not gonna stop I'll be honest Which is pretty hard to do If I'm ever close to you I'll be open if you want it Can I say what's on my mind Without shutting down this time Cause I'm not the one that Turned me into a ghost I thought I could float Now I'm just stuck in recollections And I don't exist when you're close You've stolen my bones I'm in your vision as a phantom Be devoid of all life If that's what you like But it was never my decision Just a bad dream haunting your home Too paranoid-prone Why does it matter if I'm let down I don't haunt you anymore And you don't want to anymore And it was never like before There was never a before And I needed you to try Just a string of silent nights As you show me why I'm lying It was stupid, wasn't it Now I'm never really there And you never really cared And I'm losing both my lungs because there's poison in the air You don't share in my despair I don't need to make you scared Take some harmless haunting Cake with tasteless frosting When you Turn me into a ghost Got caught up on hope Now I'm just stuck in more deceptions And I don't exist when you're close You've stolen my bones I'm in your vision as a phantom Be devoid of all life If that's what you like But it was never my decision Just a bad dream haunting your home Too paranoid-prone Why does it matter if I'm let down Look, it's snowing And I was never snow And you were never home So now I'm just a ghost... Now I'm just a ghost