older all the time

Trouble seems to follow where I go I'm a hurricane 20 years, I've still got no control And I can't escape Is it too much to say I'm terrified? I've got enough, and I try to be grateful But I've been dying all my life I'd rather stay young I would stop if I was able But I'm getting older all the time I know I'm no saint, but I'm alright So why is this so hard I just hope I live a better life And not be so on guard I'm afraid of what comes next, I'm terrified I've got enough, and I try to be grateful But I've been dying all my life I'd rather stay young I would stop if I was able But I'm getting older all the time I'm laying in the street, my head heavy as concrete I'm not proud of who I am, I'm a mindless skeleton Taste of ashes in my mouth I lit the fire, can't stomp it out Could I reverse my injuries if I learned how to be nice to me I've got enough There's food here on the table But I know you see a weakness in my eyes I might self-destruct I'm highly unstable And all my fears have been magnified I've got enough, and I try to be grateful But I've been dying all my life I'd rather stay young I would stop if I was able But I'm getting older all the time I'd rather stay young I'd stop if I was able But I'm getting older all the time