Disopyramide

I just don't know what to do anymore I just can't like, can't like, happily or carelessly anymore I just feel so torn down by this situation all the time I don't know what to do It just hurts so much And I just wanna show him that I love him And that I care for him And he deserves to be loved and cared for but I can't love him anymore Summer felt right for the very first time You and I fall in love within the hot streaks And on the first night, I felt you and I needed you When we spent our time laughing about past memories Laying on top the sunflower weeds I had a feeling that we wouldn't be forever I ignore those thoughts cause like most, they demean And I love you even when I sleep in on a Saturday, hung over right next to you We can wake up whenever we decide to 'Cause no one can tell us what to Oh darling dear I could die holding you so near I would, for you, do anything Anything I should, for you, be something that you need And if our fears enclose, we'll make the most of What time we have left Sand falling in our hourglass This is a letter to my lover, who abandoned ship I miss you and I need you even though it's unwarranted And if you come straight back, I'll hold your hand I'll inherit it and invest in it, because you're my disopyramide I drink wine because of you, I decline due to you I miss you and I need you even though it's unwarranted In a world painted black, where all the shadows stack I regret what I did to you, if I admit it will you come right back Where echoes dance and sigh, in the forest where our secrets lie Autumn felt ambered and you disappeared You and I fell out in the car on the drive home And after that night, you packed up our strings When I see you next, it's at a brand new cafe The one in the market and you wore a drawstring I ended up revealing how much I missed you I sold our place by the lakeshore, the buyer had dry-cleaned blue jeans and for the very first time, I realized I was attracted to another guy These colored leaves fall and cover the cement No one notices, but I do I'm disregarded here but it's something to get used to I would, for you, do anything, anything I should, for you, be something that you need And if our fears enclose, we'll make the most of What time we have left, sand falling in an hourglass This is a letter to my lover, who abandoned ship I miss you and I need you even though it's unwarranted And if you come straight back, I'll hold your hand I'll inherit it and invest in it, because you're my disopyramide I drink wine because of you, I decline due to you I miss you and I need you even though it's unwarranted In a world painted black, where all the shadows stack I regret what I did to you, if I admit it will you come right back Where echoes dance and sigh, in the forest where our secrets lie The side effects wore and tore me apart I endlessly write about it in abstracted art After growing up with a more dystopian view I have a tendency to rethink about you Sea pink coloring, cloudy skies overhead Waves whispering "he knows" in their ceaseless tread Desperate to mend, I reach for a ghost Hope fading fast, in this silence on the coast Awaiting a sign, in the vastness, I'm diagnosed With a heart heavy of longing, in twilight, I'm enclosed I'm composed This is a letter to my lover, who abandoned ship I miss you and I need you even though it's unwarranted And if you come straight back, I'll hold your hand I'll inherit it and invest in it, because you're my disopyramide I drink wine because of you, I decline due to you I miss you and I need you even though it's unwarranted In a world painted black, where all the shadows stack I regret what I did to you, if I admit it will you come right back