Confessions (feat. Low Porosity)

I took my time, I fought my brain Worked hard and cried, still felt some pain Devil said hi, God called my name To hell and back, he rose again She hurt me bad, filled me with rage Despite the love, they act the same I know that winners got a circle But you can't reach it if you stay sane I know you've seen me cry these tears Yet I won't ever be ashamed Cause I'm addicted to this triangle of Love, Happy, and Pain A black man standing in America With nothing left to gain No I won't lose myself to the world Otherwise I'll never be the same Yall niggas want facts No I ain't speaking no cap Lemme write about my life in this rap At 8 years old, Cassidy was loving on me After Tyrese ain't want her back At ten years old, started sinning about my age cause I didn't want to be so different 8 years passed by Hell was starting to thrive Cause the lies kept on winning I was sinning Felt like it was the beginning Devil had started grinning I was preaching Filmed those other kids, my camera was doing my teaching Now I see it Now I see it Sometimes I feel like I can't do this, don't believe it Destituted in my own universe Living in the world while I'm in the hearse Feel like I'm dead but I'm getting worse No spells to break me from this hidden curse That's the way that I've always timed it Clock spinning but the world stays silent I feel like I'm gonna start a riot Stop lying on me cause all you niggas tried it I can't escape nor can I breathe in this empty room Where a noose hangs above my head as a clue Should I kill myself or man should I really live for you? Cause by the time you pick a decision it'll already be too soon And I just keep on feeling like I am a renegade Heard this life was too much to bargain on the life I made I promise you I wouldn't do nothing for this I trade Everything else, for nothing in power cause I gotta say I took my time, I fought my brain Worked hard and cried, still felt some pain Devil said hi, God called my name To hell and back, he rose again She hurt me bad, filled me with rage Despite the love, they act the same I know that winners got a circle But you can't reach it if you stay sane I know you've seen me cry these tears Yet I won't ever be ashamed Cause I'm addicted to this triangle of Love, Happy, and Pain A black man standing in America With nothing left to gain No I won't lose myself to the world Otherwise I'll never be the same I'll never be the same I'll never be the same These demons tryna control me Devil on me Devil on me Ah Ah I be wondering How am I gonna stop suffering I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I be tryna contemplate things Tryna to erase things Tryna change the history bothering me I try to be Suffocating the suffering Suffocating the suffering They call me Low Porosity But my hair is dry My phone is dry And all I do is cry And every single night I don't see no light And I'm tryna wonder if this fight is worth the fight I took my time, I fought my brain Worked hard and cried, still felt some pain Devil said hi, God called my name To hell and back, he rose again She hurt me bad, filled me with rage Despite the love, they act the same I know that winners got a circle But you can't reach it if you stay sane I know you've seen me cry these tears Yet I won't ever be ashamed Cause I'm addicted to this triangle of Love, Happy, and Pain A black man standing in America With nothing left to gain No I won't lose myself to the world Otherwise I'll never be the same