Endeavour

What you endeavour for Peace in the mind and soul What we endeavour for In their eyes to be beautiful What I endeavour for Wanting to be you more What I endeavour for Keeping it real man, I do not know no more I do not know no more Whether the Kid was something I'm ready for Feeling is mutual Being a man is nothing but mutual And maybe after all My heart's been beating with nothing to feel at all What once was my pinnacle Thought kept me grounded till I really hit the floor Ain't been here in a long time Fell off the line, I'm offline New common phrase is I'm fine Don't worry, I'm fine, Battles in my head I got scars Let the blood translate to the bars Like I just wanna be grateful man But Lord, you're making this hard Transparency showing purpose Purpose gives something to work with Respect out here I'm tryna earn it But now I'm wondering if it's worth it Just to get grace from people with no face Cause really they smile, when really it's fake And when they say great, really they're grating Down every action, down to the fraction Fraction I'm holding on By a grip, can't let it slip, can't take a trip Boy take your pick Like I don't wanna fail I don't wanna lose I don't wanna miss I just wanna know what more's left to give Like I don't wanna miss my moment World's telling me I gotta own it Lord telling me just focus Identity disorder So what you endeavour for Peace in the mind and soul What we endeavour for In their eyes to be beautiful What I endeavour for Wanting to be you more What I endeavour for Keeping it real man, I do not know no more I want the endeavour though Distractions a hundred though Desert deserting my sanity Miraging the highest highs and lowest of the lows Pictures of mountaintops reflecting beauty and I need a close up Pictures of me reflecting the wounds and I just need closure This ain't surgery though Shattering bones to carry the flow Breaking my legs to ride the wave I'm bleeding red in a vision of gray I still know color won't erase the pain But I'll sell my soul to sustain the pain Lies flooding water inside of my veins Drowning on feelings that make me insane Like maybe when they come and see me They'll see clearly That they're meant to feel me But they'd rather fear me I know, I know And lately I've been on a killing spree The Kid the penicillin Jekyll, Hyde, hero, villain Who knows? Who knows Going back to Gabe, clueless, I'm self made Ideals overrated, quick poison, Kool-Aid No I'm Gabriel, not Mum, but God named Me, already labelled, I don't need your fame Keep it coming Heard the beat and my mind went running I'm the Flash I'm the fastest gunning So try catch me up to say something Try catch me up to try and stop me I saw them fail so I'm doing it properly Never let their six strings rock me Doesn't matter how much this costs me Doesn't matter how much I'd lose Cause I'd still bet that the Kid gets better I'll endeavour Yeah, we'll endeavour So what I endeavour for Being here after all So what I endeavour for Being here after all What I endeavour for What I endeavour for