Grateful

Give me my daily bread I swear I'm still hungry Put on my cakey-face still feeling super bummy Ain't got no money, but hey, I got some friends And some brothers from the ends who would bet on me times ten My clothes aren't logo'd, my mind be going loco Feel like I don't belong here, man get up outta here and go-go I got a church to go on Sundays And Sunday's a great day Don't look forward to Mondays I let my heart beat, without thinking bout why it's beating Still focused on the fact that my demons are still creeping I swear they're never sleeping, it's hard for me to get the sleep in Sometimes what I believe in feels just like some distant dreaming Dreams and reality are two different terms And my conditions don't need to dictate whether my spirit still burns And yeah, this life hurts, but I'm happy to be hurting Let my worries out and put the work in I just wanna be grateful And I just wanna be thankful I just wanna be grateful And I just wanna be thankful But it's hard to be Looking for ways to make sense of this Whether it's really worth the pain or worth the risk I wanna take my hand and fold I swear I'm folding inside I swear I, I swear I'm crying inside I put my hands together, feels like there's so much friction My head gets to turning and conjuring up these fictions Of how you could save me, pluck me out of my mess And take me to somewhere that's just better than this Like you're my rocket ship I'm stepping on rocks I slip And I panic and lose my grip Take a step, stumble and slip I'm in a Q, what's my tip Sit down and wait your turn One day your win will come Till then you let these L's burn Like incense, but it just don't make sense I don't mean to take offense But I'm just on offence mode, I gotta Sit back and realise that I'm here for a reason Cause this winter only lasts for a season I just wanna be grateful And I just wanna be thankful I just wanna be grateful And I just wanna be thankful I don't climb these mountains to be satisfied I climb them cause my demons they just gotta die And yeah I'm terrified, I'm terrified to fall From this highness, I look to Your Highness Cause yeah, I've had good times and yeah I've had bad And yeah I've been joyful and yeah I've been mad And I have times I wanna die to my vice But I died once, I don't need to die twice Man only some will get it But don't forget it, Malcolm already said it I crossed out sin for his cross, and I'll never regret it And some think I'm pathetic, and some just see the craft And put respect on the graft, they know it's all heart Ain't got much but I'm grateful I won't be distasteful But I won't rest until me and the crew's plates full The plan right now is to put me in check I'll take respect and then I'll cash it in cheques Till then I'm gonna be grateful Till then I'm gonna be thankful Till then I'm gonna be grateful Till then I'm gonna be thankful From South East to new ends now, Uni student in the midlands Become a Dual Brand Ambassador, and model out there Finally posting singing on my insta, I might be a musician But with four wheels and an engine boy it's a love affair Also learned other righteous ways to get my money up now Could you believe 2 weeks before baptism, I fully tried to do squares Now I'm catching fades without conflict, opps would probably come to the door Like yo g, you really need to fix man's hair I got you bro, come inside cause I know Someone above it all got me It's not an eye for an eye ting, it's more like if I eat you eat, you dig Just a '98 baby, but it really feels like 2019 made me Back on track with my faith and, more opportunities await me Gratitude is really something I be out here learning daily Since the Lord came into my life and since he dun saved me Maybe being grateful is the only way of living that can change me And I can't teach you You gotta learn yourself Find your wings and fly And don't sit on the shelf