Memory Remains

Wonderin' just where I've been, I'm losin' Parts of me, I can't get back, can't choose them Prayin' for another way through this Hell I've been escaping through the music To be afraid, I always am I miss the stage, and I miss all of my friends Still here, sun ready sun steady No fear A headache no bedding What's real and what's not My stomach in knots Felt reality, Sink in and stay Hopin' that my memory remains Thinkin' bout the facts of life and Jesus Wonderin' if he's gonna see me through Findin' all the ways I fucked my life up Until I understand that this whole life's rough To shine like gold, I wish I could Stop feelin' old, leave the past and do some good Still here, sun ready sun steady No fear A headache no bedding What's real and what's not My stomach in knots Felt reality, Sink in and stay Hopin' that my memory remains Do you think about me? When the parties over I think about you and cry, I'm getting older It's hard to talk with these tears inside my eyes Cold and locked, I think about it all the time Alive, I'm ready, sun's steady No lies I'm Fienen' Believin', there's more to this life Felt the strife, laid it down Insane Hopin' that my memory remains