Nothing Left To Say

For the past 18 years My life was constantly changing I just graduated high school Now it feels like I have made it There are times when I'm distracted Times where I'm overreacting I'm autistic, but I'm average Following my music passion There are moments where I'm feeling lost And I'm drowning in my thoughts Does 18 mean anything or not? The first day of spring, I became an adult I got nothing left to say There is nothing in my brain I cannot find the words this time If you ask me, I don't know why If you ask me, I don't know why If you ask me, I don't know why I decided to wait on love And instead, I will be working That don't mean I'm out of luck Doesn't mean that I am hurting I used to have a reputation Where everyone hated me Back when I was growing up I did not have anything Nostalgia is one hell of a drug Feeling good, golden as f*ck I won't pay attention to what's outside I hope that she is still on my side I got nothing left to say There is nothing in my brain I cannot find the words this time If you ask me, I don't know why If you ask me, I don't know why This next part's going to be a mouthful But here we go This was my new beginning Yeah, you were my little spring fling What the hell am I to do Because I know you won't remember me Such a hopeless romantic Who used to have all the freedom But the king has been dethroned I'm not doing alright Believe me when I said I lost my mind to you Because I'm always on the run What if I'm trapped inside my head? Was it a dream or was it not? No, there is nothing left to say You already showed me the way The future makes me so afraid She's not around for what I made HUH-LAY-WUH is the correct way to say my last name It's about time I put my worries to the side once again Thank you all for being with me all this fucking time There is nothing left to say So I guess this is goodbye For real this time