Lost In A Void

I've tried my best to get by and to nullify This monotonous pain but it won't subside Is there something more to this infectious life Or am I just waiting for my time I need something to point the finger to To explain to me Why I'm not happy Maybe if I had everything that I needed I'd feel like my life would have purpose or meaning But no matter how much wealth I've got A life without fulfillment's not one worth living And I'm to blame I hate the nights alone That's where my deepest thoughts Come crawling out reminding me that I am not enough Lost in a void No clear direction How do I live up to others expectations Where do I go from here I need the guidance, someone to tell what to do I wish I'd disappear Avoid the burden of struggling through life And I'm to blame I hate the nights alone That's where my deepest thoughts Come crawling out reminding me that I am not enough And I'm to blame I hate the nights alone That's where my deepest thoughts Come crawling out reminding me that I am not enough I'm not enough Lost in a void No clear direction How do I live up to others expectations