Mirrors

It makes me lose all my sleep It makes me so numb and weak It makes me refuse going out Scared of things I'll be swallowing down I fear my own appetite Anxiety comes after just one bite Wish I knew it was never right For anyone to ever starve through the night No matter what they try to say It just makes me someone that I hate How did I possibly end up this way Losing my faith in my body and shape It's scary how mirrors they speak So loud about things I don't wanna see Focus on all my insecurity Oh I'm scared that it will never leave There's so much I wanna change I'm drowning in so much shame Two workouts a day I thought I'd feel better this way But it gets worse when I try taking a break No matter what they try to say It just makes me someone that I hate How did I possibly end up this way Losing my faith in my body and shape It's scary how mirrors they speak So loud about things I don't wanna see Focus on all my insecurity Oh I'm scared that it will never leave Wish the younger me Would understand This shirt That skirt Don't represent If I look pretty if I look smart I know they don't show a thing 'bout my heart So no matter what they choose to say I know I'm great I'm enough in my way Learning to appreciate this body and shape Think I found somewhere new To store my faith Now mirrors they don't really talk Cuz I stop asking them for all their thoughts I've grown into someone I Should be proud of I know what I deserve And the right way to give myself love