Love Slayer

Just got back from a date It didn't end well Shouldn't that surprise me? Or drive me crazy? It's like I'm used to it by now Can't blame the other, For I'm the disappointer A love slayer A happiness slasher God, I would make such a great villain Here's an Oscar for that pain But I wish I didn't have a fucked up brain 'Cause I look for control in things that are wild Butterflies are eating me alive And I'm the one to f*ck up my life Might as well pack my things And die alone Nobody deserves me Well, the burden I carry It's turned to a fact by now Thought love would be like TV Now it just stabs me Right through the heart Pick me apart God, I play the victim so well Here's an Oscar for that pain But I wish I didn't have a fucked up brain 'Cause I look for control in things that are wild Butterflies are eating me alive And I'm the one to f*ck up my life Love will cure my fucked up brain Someone will love me the way I am And the butterflies Will feel like I'm alive