Breakup Song City

Two weeks was yesterday And my body has calmed down a bit But my toothaches stomach pains come in and out Here they are again On 86th I've got a friend and he's sick And we just got results that it's COVID I'd give anything to have a diagnosis Treat my symptoms, give me a fix It doesn't feel better as it just gets further I can't stop feeling like my heart's been murdered Walking along all these fucking tall buildings I look up and around, I'm in a breakup song city There's a visible difference in our night skies I convinced myself and everyone else you were a nice guy I tried to build a life where I could see the stars at night Spend the summers on a lake and the winters inside Yea I know I'm getting way ahead of myself It's only April and I'm on Christmas Eve Planning my text to you in my head It'll say "Tell the girls I said hey" How many plans do I have to reimagine How many times do you think this'll happen Adirondacks and Montreal and Ireland in the fall And I gotta sing that song I wrote about loving you It doesn't feel better as it just gets further I can't stop feeling like my heart's been murdered Walking along all these fucking tall buildings I look up and around, I'm in a breakup song city There's a visible difference in our night skies I convinced myself and everyone else you were a nice guy I tried to build a life where I could see the stars at night Spend the summers on a lake and the winters inside I can still hear the tone of your voice When you asked my mom what you should bring It was a nice little gesture and it let us pretend That you weren't a mess and you didn't offend But there was no pain you caused me as great as this It's like you had to break my whole nose just to fix it I'm more than uncomfortable, I'm more than unsatisfied I made you my everything I made you my life It doesn't feel better as it just gets further I can't stop feeling like my heart's been murdered Walking along all these fucking tall buildings I look up and around, I'm in a breakup song city There's a visible difference in our night skies I convinced myself and everyone else you were a nice guy I tried to build a life where I could see the stars at night Spend the summers on a lake and the winters inside