For Reasons

I haven't felt this way since I lost my first love It's the price that we pay for the bright shiny stuff Five years ago I thought it'd never let up And I wrote a whole album and it fits you like a glove I let all my friends go 'cause you felt like enough And I knew I was building A glass house for us If I text you I love you And you don't say it back Is your plan to let me realize That my cards have been stacked It's so much easier When you can blame the alcohol But you finally stopped drinking And it's not letting up at all The pattern's repeating I'm running out of answers I've been thinking 'bout the fantasy I created and planned for Some people come forever, and others come for reasons If we were meant to be together, it wouldn't change with the season And how can you stop loving in less than a week How can memories be wiped away like a tear on a cheek There were so many moments When I felt it wasn't right But I held onto your body because it got me through the night We were both here a week ago We made love in this house What scared you away What gave you an out It doesn't make sense People don't change that quickly I deserve an explanation Because it feels like you betrayed me It's so much easier When you can blame the alcohol But you finally stopped drinking And it's not letting up at all The pattern's repeating I'm running out of answers I've been thinking 'bout the fantasy I created and planned for Some people come forever, and others come for reasons If we were meant to be together, it wouldn't change with the season I texted your family I packed up their presents Leave them under the tree Let them know that I meant it That I loved their son And I tried so hard to Make him feel better I tried to heal his big bruise But I deserve a Sunday Without watching the door Wondering if there will be kisses When his bag hits the floor