Punching Bag

You were always so critical of everything I did I was really gettin' sick of being talked to like a little kid When we asked you to build both of the queen size beds You just grunted and sulked, then you grabbed the tools You always forced yourself to help You were never that excited when I came home from a trip I always greeted you like an excited little puppy, it was sick We had dinner at your friend's We had beers and I made small talk with the girls You said that's what you wanted Don't you see that we live in a wider world I went to a concert to distract me from my mind And I sat with my sister with the light drained from eyes All I wanted was to hold your hand I wanted to go back to the plan But do you remember Jade Bird It could've been any band Because I cried the whole damn night Into my sweaty cotton mask I asked you what you were feeling and I shouldn't have Because you sunk into it Used me like a punching bag I guess I shouldn't have read your journal but I did Yea that one that I bought you because you needed it You wrote you were afraid of losing your partner and you did I never listened when you said you were selfish I went to a concert to distract me from my mind And I sat with my sister with the light drained from eyes All I wanted was to hold your hand I wanted to go back to the plan But do you remember Jade Bird It could've been any band Because I cried the whole damn night Into my sweaty cotton mask I asked you what you were feeling and I shouldn't have Because you sunk into it Used me like a punching bag But you were always something to look forward to I adored you I tried to make myself quieter for you I tried to get a little smaller for you I wish I could have been shyer for you I wish I could've been a liar for you But the things that made me fall for you, boo Are the things that made you small for me, too My confidence with your solitude We were never gonna sing the same tune And if you hadn't been so mean to me soon I would have never ever left, that's for true If it had ended any better than that It was never gonna end I tried to make myself quieter for you I tried to get a little smaller for you I wish I could have been shyer for you I wish I could've been a liar for you But the things that made you fall for me, boo Are the things that made you small for me, too My confidence with your solitude We were never gonna sing the same tune And if you hadn't been so mean to me soon I would have never ever left, that's for true If it had ended any better than that It was never gonna end But do you remember Jade Bird It could've been any band Because I cried the whole damn night into my sweaty cotton mask I asked you what you were feeling and I shouldn't have Because you sunk into it Used me like a punching bag