Bystander

Mature enough to know not to confide in others They've got their own problems they have to cover So many occupied with trying to find their own lover They forgot the first step Yourself you must discover But I've found that I've found me But still don't find anyone who sees the value in we And I don't even mean that in a romantic way I'm talking plutonic don't have a best friend I would call and say Hey man I appreciate you everyday Sticking by me looking out at whatever which way And I'm blessed by you be that as it may You my brother from another mother I'll see you again But I don't have that I have scraps of every single group Pick up thrown out affection that they keep loose But I stay strong don't know you'd be the same in my shoes But at least I can lay it out on these blues Looking through one sided glass Cause I see the window pane where they can't see me back They can't sing my praises so I cannot sing them back No one to vent to so I put it on a track They leave me out to dry like a towel rack Leaving empty but weighed down a full backpack of strings attached It's a rat race with you legs in a sack The way you move up is to flaunt fancy nick-nacks And racks platinum plaques don't show no cracks In that facade that you can't keep track While steam engines roll you coal to ash that's black Need a smack a cold dose of reality The tragedy that I find myself not to be One of the regulars in my main cast A revelation that'll hit you so fast I ain't got no real friends They just know my name They don't know my story They don't pick my brain They think that I'm boring So they let me abstain I'm just a bystander Doesn't that sound lame I ain't got no real friends They just know my name They don't know I'm lonely When I can't play their games No one consoles me They don't share this pain I'm just a bystander Doesn't that sound lame And what goes up must go down So there's no surprises When my smile turns to a frown And if I'm up when I'm down Don't be surprised If I retreat from town Lone wolf just another word for a loser Don't touch grass keep focus on the computer Community robbed unbeknownst there was a looter This lone wolf feeling like he's been neutered. We don't have conversations just tidbits On the outside like a nitwit Embodied like a peach pit Poisonous I'm a parasite scratch me like nits They'll say we're friends but the shoe won't fit Slowly don't have energy just tell me to leave Let's stop this This face cade that's how I used to call it Let's shoot the shit now a baller Cut the crap before the pile gets taller Like a bank leave me a loan sir Call that a wrap before we falter I ain't got no real friends They just know my name They don't know my story They don't pick my brain They think that I'm boring So they let me abstain I'm just a bystander Doesn't that sound lame I ain't got no real friends They just know my name They don't know I'm lonely When I can't play their games No one consoles me They don't share this pain I'm just a bystander Doesn't that sound lame And what goes up must go down So there's no surprises When my smile turns to a frown And if I'm up when I'm down Don't be surprised If I retreat from town It's Insane Have to refrain From attaching so that I can retain A semblance of my mind per say'n Per stay you gotta pay And maybe we'll have you lay in our minds But your impression don't pop like land mines Not a picture so Devine Conveying creating abstract designs Not something complex A language hand signs I read the room goodbye damn fine I'd say call me but you damn don't have my landline When logistics are inclined no one seems to have time Plans are only made when the responsibility is mine Too late you're too late The consummate consummation of friendships is to great Your new fate is to wonder groups desolate Can't find the one trust me I know the frustrate But enough says enough plays enough Solo bananarama can't find a bunch But the bruised boys don't end up being lunch Writing lyrics that end up getting scrunched Because on the inside I'm a runt Kicked to the curb called a mutt Chest impaled my heart with a crunch Ugly the way my back turns to a hunch Can't breathe as if my lungs was punched Thought i was the predator but I'm the prey of this hunt Yeah I am a loner no more friends Falling outs fell out now I repent But there's no going back everything has an end Just making way for the next to begin Like an empty cup means it can be filled to the brim This setback doesn't mean your credits are fin But don't ignore your cardinal sins Rearrange the lines turn an L to a Win I ain't got no real friends They just know my name They don't know my story They don't pick my brain They think that I'm boring So they let me abstain I'm just a bystander Doesn't that sound lame I ain't got no real friends They just know my name They don't know I'm lonely When I can't play their games No one consoles me They don't share this pain I'm just a bystander Doesn't that sound lame I ain't got no real friends They just know my name They don't know my story They don't pick my brain They think that I'm boring So they let me abstain I'm just a bystander Doesn't that sound lame