What if we break up?

I don't know myself anymore I'm saying, judging so much Walking sunny from my door You're tryna help me but I'm not I'm not ready to fall I'm not ready to cry I'm not ready to go past You don't know how much it hurts But i hope you'll understand This is something that I'm not And I'm something different I'm not ready to fall I'm not ready to cry I'm not ready to go past Cause I've been thinking all the days Of all the crazy I've not had I've been thinking my mistakes And all the people that I've hurt I'm not ready to cry I'm not ready to leave you Cause you are my mum And, what if we break up? I'm not ready to get up I'm not ready to fall I'm not ready but somehow I stand alone and I'm gone I don't know how much it hurts I don't know how it ends I don't know how it goes But I know it began Cause I've been thinking all the days Of all the crazy I've not had I've been thinking my mistakes And all the people that I've hurt I'm not ready to cry I'm not ready to leave you Cause you are my mum And, what if we break up? And I've been thinking all the days Of all the crazy I've not had I've been thinking my mistakes And realized you were not there I've been thinking about you Cause I love you so much Can't hate you but I do What if we break up?