Black Tears

Minding my business, been a long time since I witnessed A feeling so divine and I think it's, a sign from the stars to begin this But then I see her face right in front of me Even though she's away, she's confronting me Been 5000 days, I don't wanna be stuck in this place nor this phase I cannot believe I'm gonna make another song about that Even though I really do not miss her and I doubt that There will be another us, yeah I know I sound wack But it's all facts , I withdrawal and then I fall back When I recall all the moments of me being desperate I messed with a drug that is potent , I tested some potions that scarred my emotions Got me floating in oceans of regrets that I just kept in Feeling foolish fighting a fake hope Got me screwed inside and I can't coupe with the new ones I resume some of the antiques that I used to do with her then I just panic cuz I got right back here Breaking a heart out of nothing but fear Blaming myself even though it's not clear Go home , cry all these black tears That breakup, made me not wanna wake up I can't trust any woman that easy, cuz I can't trust myself and my inner peace is bleeding So I search for any reason to be leaving I believe in a thing called love but I'm not fit to seek it I receive it, yet I can't give it back, I deceived them That's why I'm apologising to all the women that I ended up traumatising I fall from high when I talk them lies and then my thoughts collide Telling my heart that I should start finalising The spark we had , my emotional bag drags me back to an ex from the past And it's sad, cuz I'm attached to someone who got hurt by me, and she is living without me glad, yeah Feeling foolish fighting a fake hope Got me screwed inside and I can't coupe with the new ones I resume some of the antiques that I used to do with her then I just panic cuz I got right back here Breaking a heart out of nothing but fear Blaming myself even though it's not clear Then go to my room, drink my black tears