Lonely Day

Such a lonely day and its mine Most loneliest day of my life Such lonely day should be banned It's a day I can stand Dam its such a lonely day Absorb myself inside my inner thoughts is the only way To relieve the tension from being puppeteered by my veins Using the retention to keep me locked up inside my chains All the pain is infecting me like a toxin that keeps on effecting me Shut up I don't need y to lecture me, I know my mind is my own enemy Looking out the window in the morning Got a lot of things that I've been ignoring Don't focus on the negatives that's not important Looking at blinds watching raindrops start pouring Wish I could enjoy my darks skies But they always close all my blinds And tell me Ill be just fine but its all lies You wont understand unless you see it through my own eyes Such a lonely day Shouldn't exist It's a day that I'll miss Such lonely day and its mine Most loneliest day of my life Maybe if mom would've drop the bottle Not just the drinks I'm talking the pills too But you never listened so guess what they dropped you No one in our family quite knew you like I do All the lies don't change I've become cold to it You don't know what love is till you sold your soul to it Been living off a prayer I've become numb to it I don't like to be depressing but I've become a slave to it It's always hard to admit your the source of all your problems its tough to digest I know deep down all my decisions are the reason for my struggle I'm the cause of my own stress How did I get here in the first place I don't know what I'd even say to gods face I'm so angry I'd probably fall from gods grace But that's what happens when your life is full of lonely days Such a lonely day Shouldn't exist It's a day that I'll miss Such lonely day and its mine Most loneliest day of my life Such lonely day and its mine It's a day I'm glad I survived