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What if I fell up Like what the hell up Don't belong on the ground I need propellors I got the moon tied to a tether I try to pull up but I ain't got no feathers Well I guess Heavens for the birds Swear to God I can feel my feet lifting I feel that gear turn but I don't hear no pistons Might just be my disposition Maybe I'm too chill Maybe I should stop pretending and say whats real I ain't never took no handouts And I ain't never told a watch the way this pans out I told a lot of lies but I told them for you I don't want no questions baby put your hand down Only worried bout them who whats and when whys I've been digging for the reasons for her three lies Could always see the treason in them green eyes The tree leaves and leaf vines That thieving bitches brother took my Levi's And his sister stole my sweet time f*ck it Get my buzz on like a bee hive Chase that liquor for the pain thats a bee line My elders say in time everything will be fine But when I close my eyes she the one I dream bout Shit ugh back to this real shit me and my mom getting closer She was a soldier I was her first born we was dirt poor Shit she went to war I was seven on her first tour Thats when I got to know grand mom and pop-pop My daddy was AWOL Went to catholic school met all my cousins And then I learned to play baseball We was some whiffle ball bat backyard school kids Luke was a cool kid I always did what Luke did He showed me Jay-Z and how to throw my curveball You was my first friend in the world dog We was cousins nah f*ck it we was brothers Two young kids that very rarely saw they mothers Raised by they grannies and families I love you Luke I know half of the time you could'nt stand me To love me is to know me I wish you were my homie But I ain't got no friends man I'm so fucking lonely Cut em' all off and now it's f*ck you blow me F*ck you pay me did they ever really know me I always had a funny feeling they was phony Sweeter than some candy and faker than bologna Top class actors Oscar Emmy and Tony you fucking pussy Now most of these bitches is out of pocket like a lost cell Shit I wish thats why my call failed Now when I crack a book I like to read non-fiction Too many pretty princesses telling tall tales yeah To my ex's I wish em' all well I like to Go down to Texas where my dad stays ugh Get to balling with my siblings Lexi Xavier and Xaden I miss em' on my bad days Cause me and Dad squashed the beef Homie got kids like properties in Monopoly I believe in God and anything that my eyes can see They tell me its impossible but I know it ain't out of reach And now the sun shining down on me everybody doubted me They finally say they proud of me but why'd you look down on me I don't know And to the old Gage you made it to the new Gage I hate him But you a damn long way from that basement With no heat sleeping on the pavement Touch a little bit of money then got comfy and complacent Grand mom passed I'm tryna move gracious Work hard remain grateful and patient Main message find God remain humble Original sin we all come from the same struggle yeah