Fucking Always In This Headspace

No I cannot run She is brighter than the sun No I cannot run That's why I'm so fucking done No I cannot run Swear that life's no fucking fun No I cannot run Maybe my life is a pun No I cannot run In my head she's number one No I cannot run She more fatal than a gun No I cannot run And the pressure weighs a ton But I wouldn't change it none So she there is man stuck inside my brain And sometimes man swear I can feel the pain Knows who she is, but I will not say her name But even if I do, there is nothing I can gain To be completely real I've wrote this song twice, just counting the scraps this song is the third time Fell so damn hard the beginning felt so nice, she was gorgeous yeah found myself the whole dime Gambling man I just had to roll the damn dice, now I keep the truth silent just like the damn mime Put my heart in now I have to pay the price, put strain on my mental break me down like enzyme Thought squeezing my head like I put it in a vice, got pretty good at pretending that I am fine Break off pieces like pickaxe to thin ice, can't ignore the feeling creeping up my damn spine (It's hard for me to admit that, I love someone way more than they will ever love me) (Because I've hid it so well and I've tried with other girls but) (This one always sticks in the back of my head) (Like everything about her sticks with me, her eyes, her smile, her laugh) (She said she love me first and that never, never happened before her) No I cannot run She is brighter than the sun No I cannot run That's why I'm so fucking done No I cannot run Swear that life's no fucking fun No I cannot run Maybe my life is a pun No I cannot run In my head she's number one No I cannot run She more fatal than a gun No I cannot run And the pressure weighs a ton But I wouldn't change it none No I wouldn't change it none