what if?

What if Thinking what if What if Thinking what if Wonder what I'll be like if I ever get famous Will it be different or just more of the same shit Will I get better or just more of these lame hits An underground artist so I'm fucking nameless Hearing people talk like "oh he's the lamest" Until I get recognition I'll remain fame less Should have a Netflix show cause I'm fucking shameless Done sitting around losing my fucking patience Don't need the bread none of the damn money Joke on my name thinking that they funny Outta dark times so the future lookin sunny Fucking on ya girl she a playboy bunny Rhymes so sweet you might think it's honey Pussies looking soft kinda like a gummy Stop acting hard you look kinda scummy I'm so cold your nose is getting runny What if Thinking what if What if one of these days I end up in the spotlight Maybe soar in wind like a brand new damn kite I just wanna know that my fam will be alright In the good days buy everything in damn sight I've come too far to give up on the damn fight They say kill yourself start to think I just might But there's some saying the future looking too bright The pressure in my head my hats feeling too tight When I die will it be black or maybe plain white Demons hide in the day coming out in the damn night Those first couple songs I wrote out of damn spite They say I'm all talk then come see if I will bite What if Thinking what if What if Thinking what if What if there are thousands while jumping on stage Could it be true or will I wake up from a daze Will what people say still fill me up with rage Wanna start a new chapter but I'm stuck on one page Don't think it's true but maybe this is a phase Will I still feel like I'm locked inside a cage That's in my mind work for minimum wage Where will I be at 40 years of age Would I go broke to get some fucking chain Lock myself away while I go insane Maybe do drugs to deal with all the pain Then look around for someone else to blame All cause these people know my GODDAMN name Dig myself a grave and never be the same Honestly tho ready to play that game Won't do it for clout that shits so lame What if Thinking what if What if I do my best but can't remain calm Will I start smoking on pipes like my Til my fucking head explodes like the bomb Til I'm strung out put my head in my palm Then I look back to when I made this song And think how I was writing this so wrong I'll never be like this my mind too strong Fucking knew I had it in me all along I can do this shit I've got no doubt Won't let myself get ran by clout Doing this until Maine scene gets out Until that day I will yell and shout What if